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    Shock and Awe

    You never know how you are going to react to a situation until you are in it. It is so easy to say you would do this or that while watching a t.v. show or a movie. I am guilty of it everytime I watch “Big Brother”. But to really be involved in it and use split second thinking is another. I had that moment today. Looking back, I may have handled this particular moment differently. It has been so hot and humid here we went to an indoor play place with slides and tunnels. It was Sloane, Dempsey and another little boy with his mother there. I watched through…

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    One Way Ticket: SFO-AKL

    Dustin was on a work trip for 2 weeks before we left for New Zealand. This was the longest we have ever been apart since having Sloane & Dempsey. And as much as I was dreading him leaving, it really flew by. The first week was probably worst because I was really doubting myself in general. I felt as though I was in this whirlwind of unrealistic expectations and couldn’t find my way out of the storm. Feelings of inadequacy, stress, sadness, loneliness swallowed me and left me gasping for air and I really needed a good cry. Once the 2nd week rolled around I was grooving through the days…

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    Trust In You

    A few years ago Dustin, Sloane and I had the opportunity to move to London. We took our 15 month old baby on a 10 hour flight to visit and prepare our family for a big move. We stayed for 2 weeks in a TINY hotel room. Tiny as in you walk in and you are in the bedroom/living space. The bathroom was fairy large which ended up working out for us since we would move Sloane’s cot in there for her bedtime. It was tough for many reasons. I was a new mama so I was overly paranoid about everything and super strict about naps times and eating schedules.…

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    The Battle Was Lost

    Hysterical crying…Irrational thinking…Epic tantrums…Timeouts… You think I’d be speaking of my threenager but no, it was meFull parental meltdown.Dustin left for a work trip to London for 2 weeks. Leaving me home alone with the babes, 3 weeks before we depart for New Zealand. No big deal. I got this!As soon as we dropped him off at BART, it was like the kids knew something had changed and it was constant screaming and whining from my littles until finally, 4 days later, mommy had her own meltdown. Maybe it was the stress of packing whenever I had a moment. Maybe it was the lack of sleep. Maybe it was because…

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    The Beginning…

    I’m not even sure where to begin. The beginning of it all doesn’t seem like the right spot. So I’ll start in my present state. I am sitting at my kitchen nook, feeding my kids an assorted lunch of pasta, watermelon, string cheese and pink goldfish crackers because, why not? Our dogs, Gypsy and Darby, are sitting at the kids feet, waiting for a dropping of food. And when i say dropped food, I mean pushed over the edge of the high chair by my 18-month old son Dempsey or hand fed by my 3 year old daughter, Sloane. I had a bit of a crying moment thinking about everything…